Mackgurl's Musings

Slowly, you wade cautiously through the depths... In water, not murky, but not the blue of crystals... Cautious, hesitant...afraid of making waves... A plethora of thoughts, birthed from episodic overthinking... These thoughts serve to weigh you down, like stones ... Tied around your waist, your legs, your arms...yet still you wade... Until one day, that day you decide no more wading... No more sloshing through what-ifs and maybes... Now you're jumping in with both feet, eyes wide...into the deep end... Full speed... No stones... No worries... No fears... Just stepping out on faith... Walking on water.                                                                                                                ...

In the stillness of her bedroom, alone in the dark, in the quiet...she tests her voice...her words...unsure of the delivery but so wanting them to be heard...to be felt... “Love?” She whispers on a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding...”Love?” She says a little louder but only just...”I miss  you...tonight, when you close your eyes to sleep come find me...I will be waiting for you when I close my eyes to dream..."

Out of the blue, you appeared in my life... Like the sun, peeking from the clouds after a storm So bright, you seemed to glow and radiate such  warmth. In your presence, well... I feel your care, your VOICE , your SMILE ... How can I possibly feel your VOICE ?! How can I feel your SMILE? ! Am I crazy? When I'm with you, well... I hear your heart, I hear your EYES ... I hear your EYES !  Am I crazy?! I thought that if I admitted... At least to myself, t hat I liked you - a little, it  would help. But, no, I still feel your SMILE caressing my lips - when I'm alone. Maybe I am crazy? I figured if I admitted... At least to myself, that I liked you more than a little, that would be enough. But no, I can still feel your VOICE surrounding me - when I'm alone. OH GOD, I must be crazy?!! I hoped that if I admitted... At least to myself, that I love you - a little, it would stop these crazies! But no, I can still hear your EYES talking to me - when I'm alone. So today, I stan...

Hi Baby...Hi Love...Hey Hun...Babe? Those words are bandied about a lot . To some, those words may seem casual but to me they mean much much more. They are words that  show how deeply you've ingrained yourself in my heart.  My constant source of smiles... You are a fountain overflowing with hugs, laughter, security and most of all love. I wish so much that you were here... Here with me... My hand in yours, your lips on mine.  It would be pure bliss... But you're not here...Not where I can hold you, cuddle with you... But you're not here...Not where you can hold me, snuggle with me... No... you're not here...you're there... Hmmm, I wonder...no I'm actually fairly certain... THERE...Wherever you are right now...In that place, in that moment of time... I know that THERE has no idea how lucky it is to have you.

A house built with straw A house built with sticks We know how the story goes Quickly thrown together A few flowers, a few kisses, a few sweet words And then the wolf takes a deep breath A house built with straw A house built with sticks We know how the story goes The wolf begins to blow Exhaling puffs of anger, huffs of misunderstandings Stirring your hurt feelings and making you run A house built with straw A house built with sticks Is no match for a house built with bricks It's foundation is strong Built on friendship, laughter Spending time together, learning one another It can withstand a hurricane of tears It can withstand the tides of raised voices A shelter from the huffs of disappointments But it takes more time to build It takes more care, more effort Ensuring that the foundation is set A house built with straw A house built with sticks A house built with bricks We know how the story goes Now, which house do you prefer? And which house will you choose to build?

Quick game - Choose one of the songs listed below and use it in your best catchphrase of what you would say to your future boo. Today's group -  SILK   (I don't own the rights to the songs or image from the album cover) 1. IF YOU (LOVING ME) 2. MEETING IN MY BEDROOM 3. LOSE CONTROL 4. FREAK ME 5. LETS MAKE LOVE 6. I CAN GO DEEP 7. HOOKED ON YOU 8. GIRL U FOR ME 9. SEXCELLENT 10. PLEASE DON'T GO 11. BACK IN YOUR ARMS 12. WHAT KIND OF LOVE IS THIS 13. NOW THAT IVE LOST YOU 14. DONT KEEP ME WAITING 15. AHH Here's mine: AHH, I've planned something for us baby, something SEXCELLENT - a MEETING IN MY BEDROOM for just the two of us. So P LEASE DON'T KEEP ME WAITING for you to FREAK ME. IF YOU (LOVING ME) , go ahead and LOSE CONTROL and LET'S MAKE LOVE . Damn, baby, WHAT KIND OF LOVE IS THIS ?! I'm already HOOKED ON YOU. PLEASE DON'T GO , luv, not yet. I just want and need to be BACK IN YOUR ARMS for a little while longer... Well, what do you think? Y...

Your hands… exploring… your fingers… searching and finding… t he gravity at the center of me that holds me down… one touch launches me… the second touch s ets me free… i nto the heavens… seeing stars and feeling moon dust.

Snuggled in these arms of yours they hold me close and tight...not to hurt or restrict but to reassure me that all is well... that here it’s okay to take down my walls... that here in the shelter of your arms, listening to the music created by the beating of your big warm heart I am safe... I am home.