Mackgurl's Musings

Looking out on an expanse of tranquility... Here I sit...alone but not lonely... Between them there is a difference... It's subtle, yet deep in its intensity... Alone, a stone of thoughts... Small and light...will skip across the serenity of blue... Smooth ripples, endless ripples that dance across the surface... Calming in its undulating rhythm... Lonely, a boulder of thoughts... Big and heavy...would not skip or dance across the peaceful oasis... Rough swells, endless swells that battle much deeper than the surface... Torrential in its unrelenting cadence... Here I sit...alone but not lonely... The difference between them... a choice, a mindset... A lone stone, small and light...skipping and dancing... Or a boulder, rough and heavy...sinking you to the bottom, ruining the quiet blue.

In the stillness of her bedroom, alone in the dark, in the quiet...she tests her voice...her words...unsure of the delivery but so wanting them to be heard...to be felt... “Love?” She whispers on a breath she didn’t even realize she was holding...”Love?” She says a little louder but only just...”I miss  you...tonight, when you close your eyes to sleep come find me...I will be waiting for you when I close my eyes to dream..."

Hi Baby...Hi Love...Hey Hun...Babe? Those words are bandied about a lot . To some, those words may seem casual but to me they mean much much more. They are words that  show how deeply you've ingrained yourself in my heart.  My constant source of smiles... You are a fountain overflowing with hugs, laughter, security and most of all love. I wish so much that you were here... Here with me... My hand in yours, your lips on mine.  It would be pure bliss... But you're not here...Not where I can hold you, cuddle with you... But you're not here...Not where you can hold me, snuggle with me... No... you're not here...you're there... Hmmm, I wonder...no I'm actually fairly certain... THERE...Wherever you are right now...In that place, in that moment of time... I know that THERE has no idea how lucky it is to have you.

A while back, I posted about being held hostage. See, that article was about...well I don't want to go into too much detail in case you haven't had a chance to read it yet (hint hint). Suffice it to say it was about being in a situation you'd rather not be in. Maybe you've been super fortunate not to have found yourself in a situation like that...until now. And who is your hostage taker? Say hello to COVID-19...UGH!  This virus has spread so rapidly and doesn't discriminate - everyone is a potential victim or carrier/transmitter. The best way to slow down what has become a pandemic is to limit exposure. To what? Well basically PEOPLE! Schools are closed, most businesses are closed - unless they are essential (hospitals, supermarkets, pharmacies...) restaurants are open but only for takeout or delivery. No movie theater, no malls, no parties. WE are basically on restriction! House arrest without the ankle monitors... If you're married/partnered - ok so maybe ...