Mackgurl's Musings

Flames burn bright until they are blown out by the breath of the one who once gave you your reason to glow. In the dark now, your smoldering ashes beg to be stirred to life with the spark of love that never comes.  Yet you wait…You hope… And then you feel it…A small but new whisper of breath flutters the ashes.  Dare you hope? Will this new breath be the spark your heart has been longing for? Dare you trust it to keep you warm…to make you burn…again?

I've been accused on more than one occasion of being a DEEP thinker. Hmm, not sure if at the time they were trying to say I was smart, possessed a super high intellect or maybe they caught me while I was spacing out and were being sarcastic??? Who knows but they were definitely on to something (I leave it up to you to decide which was right. Be warned, YMMV. At any rate, I was at one of my fave hangout spots ( STARBUCKS) and was noticing a few things...and those things got me started down this winding road of thoughts. Deep? IDK. Random? For sure! Why are people so comfy leaving their valuables unattended in Starbucks? No seriously. There was a guy at the table next to me, diligently working on some sort of report. He has a laptop, charger, book bag, wireless mouse, cell phone and perhaps the most valuable of all, a tablet full of handwritten notes (Yes, I noticed all that.) Well this same guy just got up, packed his laptop in his book bag and walked away. Leaving everyt

Beautiful …sun rises… from the clutches of darkness… …breathtaking…inspiring… no longer held captive… …fear has no power here… …free…from the fortress… …once a haven…now a prison… …holding me…  you… …tear down the walls of this castle… this place…. …exposed… …no war paint…artful camouflage… … all traces wiped away… …puffy eyes…tousled hair… … of sleep…of dreams… …and you see me… …you’ve seduced my heart… …now you own my soul… …I stand before you… …you take me as I am… …and in this moment… …for the first time… …I truly feel… Beautiful

Anyone who knows me, can tell you that I have a wide array of interests. Some are so random until even I can't recall how I got interested in them. I'm not an expert in these "hobbies" - just find them super interesting. An example of one such hobby is star gazing. One night, I was sitting in my driveway about to go in the house and a flash caught my eye out of my sunroof. It was, well, it was a flashing light pattern in the sky! Now, before you ask - I had NOT been drinking. Anyway, these lights - the lights were flashing and changing colors randomly - almost TOO randomly. And then, as I sat there, mouth agape, watching - THEY DISAPPEARED! Once, I was able to close my mouth and I said out loud OH MY GOD! What did I just SEE!!!?? What was it? Did anyone else see it? Is it, whatever IT was, coming back? Where did it go?  After that, my interest in the stars was peaked. I started sitting outside watching the sky above my house and just waiting...wondering...When I

  "All the world's a stage. And all the men and women merely players;"   Fairly famous quote...but I'm not sure I have the wording exactly right. But it was said by William Shakespeare in his work "As You Like It".  I will look up the exact quote in a sec. So yeah, we are all players (no not THAT kind of player) but actors. Every last one of you/us. No no don't argue with me. You are an actor in the play of life. Problem is, some people don't know their roles...but let's chat about that later. Actors - wear costumes, wigs, play roles, learn lines. Still not seeing the connection? Okay, check this out. Each day - for the most part - we put on our COSTUME for the day. I don't care what career you're in or where you are on your career path (college/university, trade school...), there's a costume and you don it every day. Some are more obvious that others: Police Officer                           Solider Fireman/woman    

Oh the things you see when you're out walking. Case in point, check this out.... Sitting all alone in the grass? What do you suppose he's doing there? Got tired of walking and took a break? Waiting on a friend? Meditating? (okay, so I thought maybe this when I first saw him)   NOPE!! Turns out it's a statue! Pretty cool, huh? (Sidenote: I am really digging the camera on my mobile phone. Takes really great crisp clear pictures. Seriously, just point and shoot! No muss, no fuss. Okay before this turns into a plug for a mobile device 😃...) So not a man reflecting on the days spent and the days yet to come. Not a man who just said, "whew, it's too hot and I'm too tired to keep walking...not someone down on their luck seeking monetary blessing (though it does appear that someone bestowed upon him a few coins...interesting...) A statue! I bet this statue had quite a few people thinking it was an actual person...at least from the rear angle. Someone

So the other day, I was out walking and saw this:  I don't know what made me stop and look at this...okay, maybe it was because it was random, lol. I mean it's an apple... ON A TREE! But it's not hanging from the tree - it's perched ever so carefully in the outstretched "palm" of the tree. (Do trees have palms? Okay, maybe arms would be a better word choice here...)  Someone took the time to do this. Why? What were they thinking about when they did it? Was it for a class/project? Was it just something they thought was funny/cool? Who did it? Does it have deeper meaning? To them? Is it supposed to mean something to us, the casual observer? Whatever their reason, it struck me as photograph-worthy. So I took a few shots. What do you think?   🤔Hmm, maybe I should take up photography. I already have quite a few hobbies (piano, reading, guitar, foreign languages...) But is there even such a thing as having TOO many hobbies?  I think not! Peace,

It's my tenth anniversary!!! Okay so, I'm off by a couple of weeks but nevertheless, 10 years ago this month, I wrote and published my first blog post. I don't really recall what prompted me to let you take a peak into the psyche that is moi, but I did. It has been an interesting 10 years - some good, some bad, some that fall under the heading of "how the HELL did she survive that" - (no, I haven't told you all of those stories - maybe I will one day. Stay tuned.) I've missed writing and have been thinking about jumping back in head first (I mean any other way is just boooorrrrrrrrriiiiiiiinnng).  One of the 2 posts I made 10 years ago (ooh so prolific, huh) was about Addiction . No, not drugs, or alcohol but something just as easy to get addicted to: TELEVISION!  Here's a flashback to April 2007 (cue flashback fade out and wonky music)  Addictions (excerpt) CRACK! Okay so I've never actually been exposed to crack but I hear it's pretty b